很愛過

For you,

Just wanted to say,

Thank you for everything you had did for me.

A hard lesson.

In the past month, I may have attend the biggest lesson in my life. Something that really change me, change my thinking. Today, standing at this position, I feel like I have grow up a decade. I was often labelled as a little kid to those who knows me well. Today, I'm still that little kid. At least, that is what ppl said. But I realized one thing, I laughed harder than I was before.

I learn to appreciate happiness.

For I know very well, it is not easy to gain. I fell into a pieces when he threw me from his life. I was at the most vulnerable stage of my life. I know what is pain and tears. I cried and cried. I cried when I know it wont make a difference. I cried when I know it is the only things that makes the heart feel better. I cried for self pitying myself, for not believing what had happen to me. I cried for why God give me this hard way, why must I go through this. I cried for I don't know what I can do to make my days better. I cried as I really thought it was the end my hope, believe, trust and everything. I cried for insecurity in myself.

Today, I am not completely heal.

For I believe this person will not step out in my life so easily. I am not completely heal for I wasn't a person who can fell in love so easily. I am not completely heal for once I treasured this rship before. I am not completely heal for I am a person who appreciate things though it is not there anymore.

So, it is just me.

And, deep down, I'm still afraid of being too happy. As I'm afraid the next minute, God might just take it away. This is the little guilt living in me. I don't dare to live in a comfort zone anymore. I just simply don't want that comfort zone anymore.

A hard lesson changed someone :)

The song.

There are some moments in your life that will be keep playing in your mind like a song.

Replay, replay, replay.

Lyrics of your memories.

Rhythm of your life.

And these sweet memories, you can't escape from smiling.

♥

男人男人多希望你是好人

多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼