To a friend

Yesterday and today weren't easy. You walked out. When I was packing ytd, I came across a letter you wrote to me. You told me you will stay by. You told me you will wait for me. You told me not to worry. But you walked out they way you wanted.

You told me you felt guilty towards me. You told me you're empty. But you don't need to. I can't understand how complicated your feelings is. But I dont need you to feel guilty towards me. I'm pitiful but the moment you decided to leave, you know this will happen. Like what I told you, I trusted you but you just give it away. You make me to trust you, to believe every words you told me, in the end you walk away the way you wanted. So stylish then don't come to apologize. Because sorry wont heal a broken heart. At this moment, sorry is just a meaningless word.

For all this, you just proved me right. You just proved me I'm right to feel insecure from the beginning. You left without a sign. You prepare yourself with a parachute but leave me falling from the top.

You wanted to know are you a bad person. I can say you are not a bad person. I never believe you are a bad person. It's not sarcasm. You are not a bad person. But what you did hurt me and it's only me. So, it doesn't matter what ppl think about you and no ppl can justify you are a bad person or not except me. You're very mean after you left. But I still believe you are true when you are with me.

I hope what I believe is right.

And you, please. Please be good to me since we are still friends. If I can accept you truly as a friend, I don't see a reason why you can escape this. Please do take care of your life too. As what I see, you seems to be floating in the middle of the sea. Very freely but aimlessly. Take care, my friend =)

Lollipop flowers

Something I enjoy doing all the time, art.

Lollipop flowers.

Little reasons to smile #3: Looking at your artwork and be so proud!

I got the idea to make this from some cute food website. I thought it was lovely and spent a whole afternoon doing this. This lollipop flowers were supposedly meant for someone. But something happen in between, I just keep this for myself. The gift was not deliver. Two months ago, maybe this person will still think this lollipop flowers as something precious but now, if I give it, it's just be something irrelevant.

So, why not keep the pretty things for yourselves right?

Or maybe give it to someone who will appreciate it.

However, I found owners to these flowers, that is my little cousins! Hahahahahaha, I will just give it one day till this lollipop flowers to still remain looking as flowers. I bet these two little monsters will ruin the petals very soon! Yet, I'm happy to give them as......they simply have the most sincere heart to receive this! Ouhhhh, I love to see my little cousin girl smile. She is simply adorableeeeeee!

Days in Life

Two things that make my day today, the first was my awesome lunch.

Looks like a breakfast though. But I enjoy the breakfast meal.

I was all in the mood today for cooking. Saw a baked bean hiding at the corner of mum kitchen, sausages at the freezer and a loaf of fresh bread placing on the kitchen table. So, this mean breakfast set time! I always had this little thought that breakfast set was the easiest thing to prepare in the restaurant but after trying it myself today. Eheeemmm, I found that frying a perfectly looking bullseye egg is tough =( I failed at the first egg. Egg yolk flow all over the white egg in the mid of frying. Then, the second attempt was this pathetic looking egg =( Nvm, it's in my stomach now and I'm contended!

The little things that makes you smile #1: Having a decent looking meal.

The second thing that makes me happy,

MY NEW BLOG DESIGN!

Truthfully, I make this myself! =) I was browsing for vintage blog templates at first. Then, I realize there no templates that truly satisfied me =( Previously, I always find those templates that are cute and I will edit a little on the colour and fonts. But now I wanted a vintage one, really not much out there. It's either the colour background does not impressed me or the design are just so so. I love floral vintage pattern ♥ But it's just so few out there. So, I decided to create this blog design using the blogger template designer. Seriously, the template designer is so awesomeee! I think I'm really outdated. Didn't know that blogger has such amazing tools for us to customize our blog the way we wanted. Now, I'm so motivated to change my blog design often! I do realize last time that they have new blog templates but I didn know they have so much fonts and you can just upload pic as the background. So, I search through deviantart for pretty flora design and here it is, my new blog design. Love it ♥

The little things that makes you smile #2: Doing pretty decorations for yourselves.

Did you love me like the angel

I think everyone will go through this. A feeling of wanting something back so badly, so desperately but no. You can hope, you can imagine but the result will be the same. Something you wanted will not always be on your hand. This is life. Whether you like or not, this is reality.

There are many life quotes we read everyday. So many that can be related to us. Some bring us hope but some just called us to give up.

I rmber this quote.

"If a person leave your life. Let it be. Because it means that the person journey in your life has ended. Do not hate this person."

It's meaningful and it always related to a relationship or a friend. Someone very dear to you had leave your life. You couldn let go because that person had stay in your heart for very, very long. You couldn let go because that person has completed your life for so long. You're indulged in it. Like you immersed in a quick sand. Hard to pull yourselve up. But at the end of the day, you just have to right.

You can't beg a person to stay with you. It's meaningless. So what you're in pain. So what you pass your days with tears. You cannot just force a person to stay in your life to make yourself happy. The world dont turn for you. Another person dont live for you.

It's sad. But you just have to face the truth.

For you,

did you love me like the sun

did you hold me like the mountain

in the years of you and me

did you love me like the angel

you've gone away

you said you'd stay

when the road was in your hand

did you love me like the angel

when the wind would set you free

would you love me like the angel

This is for you my friend. I wish you the greatest happiness in your life =)

Happy Convocation, Elephant.

The. amount. of. assignments. and. midterms. are.
O.V.E.R.L.O.A.D.I.N.G

So, this is the saturated me escaping from the reality a little while.

I'd been back to hometown for a week. And unexpectedly, I was able to attend the Elephant Convocation. This is the first time our gang member is graduating so everyone was excited and VERY JEALOUS since we are all undergraduates =(


Happy graduated teddy wish Congratulations to the Elephant!


They purposely get her a bouquet of flowers since the Elephant dislike it. And they ordered the red roses to trigger her.



My gift to the Elephant was this cute Bijisan with graduation cap and scroll. I thought of finding/ stitching a robe for her but but but but you know, all excuses will be out.

Now,
Look at all the eager faces.






THE MIGHTY ELEPHANT IS GRADUATING!
HOORAYYYYYYYYYYY!




The standard action,
Throwing Graduation Cap!





And lastly,
a little thought from a person who suffering from assignments and midterms now.



I WANT TO GRADUATE DESPERATELY!
*looking forward the far far away future =(*

The circle.

Hey my dear blog,
dont be upset, I havent give up on you.
Will update you a little now.

Things become messier after my sudden one week return to hometown. My grandpa passed away a week ago, that's the sudden thing. I may not be very close to my grandpa but hearing the news that he passed away, makes me felt upset too. I got the news through msg from my sis at 7.00am. I still attend my classes as usual and laugh with my friends. But the fact is when I received that news, the tears almost fell. I hold on to it. I decided to tell no one about this until I calm down. I do not want to cry in front of ppl.

Grandpa was a traditional man. And you know what the conflict between traditional man and young generation. Though I may dislike certain of his thinking, but I can say I still wish that he could see me graduate. And I know, he would love to see another of his grandchildren graduating from uni too. Two more years but he cant make it. He go through pain during haemodialysis, he go through it. He is getting thinner day by day.

Dad told me he might gave up because he was too afraid of emitting to hospital again. I understand this because human naturally will give up when they are afraid of pain.

I reached my grandpa hse. Look into the coffin, he was in there. Told him, "I'm back". He look prosperous. And I know, he left with peace.

May grandpa rest in peace.

Heaven steps : Hana

This post is about FOOD!

I purposely make myself blog after my dinner so that my stomach wont be grumbling at me when I scrolled down. Back to 26September where I had a date with my KK close friend for my birthday, we went for dinner at Hana.

Hana (はな) means flower in Japanese.

We noticed this restaurant since last semester but didn get a chance to step in as we afraid that it's pricey. But since it's my birthday, I thought of choosing a new place for dinner. Make an effort to do survey on this restaurant and the review from various blogs was they served good Japanese food at reasonable price! So, no more hesitating, this is it! Ching Yee and I were more than excited to go here since we both craved for sushi everyday! The stomach cant wait any longer, it will be our dinner for the day!




Ching Yee! But I called her Ching san most of the time since our Japanese sensei called her that.


The appetizer!
While waiting for the main course, we grabbed this to ease our crave for a moment. This is from the belt. This definitely look tempting! *slurpslurp*

WE LOVE SALMON THE MOST!


Take pic take pic before it's gone!


Now, the first bite! IT'S HEAVEN! It makes me feel so happy having this! Seriously, no joke, I was completely overwhelmed by this salmon sushi. How can this be so good? And that moment, it's official bye bye to the other Japanese restaurant I had in KK.

Since their sushi is so impressive, we decided to have more! But the sushi belt wasnt offering much choices, so we ordered a plate of salmon sushi! I dont rmber the name of the sushi but you definitely can recognize it through picture.

Here come the main courses.

My curry raisu.


Yaki udon.

Both main course are in huge portion for both of us especially the curry raisu. The chic chop in curry raisu seems like it's meant for 3persons instead of personal size. And add with many many potatoes, you just can finish the whole meal yourselves.





And now, the salmon sushi that we ordered!


I felt so touch looking at this *awwwwww* It feels like I'm flying up the sky. I'm sososoosososo HAPPY too see this sumptuous sushi serve on our table. It makes my day! I want to make a confession, I love sushiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii! ♥



Omg, even my stomach is full now, I can feel my saliva producing rapidly. Temptation temptation. Never regretted to order this though we had a hard time finishing our meal.



Sushi best partner? Errrrrr, Ching san likes it but not me. I dislike the smell! This is one thing I can take in sushi restaurant =/



LOOK! We both are happy with this! It's amazing how food can make a person happy. Seriously, it works!


Our meal for the night!



You'll never be happier to see so many good food place in front of you! Power of food.


Last pic. Never forget Hana's sushi!