Simplicity

Simplicity in life.

Sometimes, life can be so complicated that you feel like suffocating.

I wish, I really wish I could wake up some day feeling so contended with my life. Feeling so free. Free of pain, free of problems. I just wish I could have a simple smile from the heart within.

I wish this day could come quickly.

Yes, I don't have the patient because I started to lose track. I just want to be happy. I just want to wake up and feel like I am myself again.

Sometimes, when I woke up, I thought it was just a dream. Or I wish my dream was my reality. I wish I live in that perfect dream. And this reality was just a nightmare.

It's not that I'm okay. It's just I didn't know how to cry in front of another person.

I wish I could live this simple life.

Looking at the nature everyday. Looking at the sea. Knowing that if I work, I will have food. Sitting by the seaside, listening to the birds, sound of the wave. If I took a nap, I woke up, I'm still where I am.

But now, I'm afraid to even fall asleep. If I do, I'm afraid to wake up.

The clown in my class

Today, I have a test, Vibration test. The lecture isn't an easy one. He thought us three semesters ago and we know very well his style of teaching and questions. Very unpredictable and practically, you will just smile foolishly looking at his questions. In almost every classes, he gave us quizzes. The most quizzes we had ever took for a subject. Now, he is teaching us again. For test, we expected it that though we study, we might not know a single thing =/

So, today I went in the class for the test, I sat at the corner. Then, one of my course mate who was sitting behind me, came and sit beside me. The whole class, seriously the WHOLE CLASS, laughed. Including himself and me. The class was never so merrier before that the laughter last for few minutes. Curious to know why? You'll know it soon. Another course mate voice came from behind, "Oiiii, itu dah obvious sangat copy tu". Well, basically, the whole class know that the purpose he sat beside me was to copy. But of course, he didn mean it, he always created something on purpose for the class to laugh. He is our clown. He shamefully sat back on his original place. Yet, the laughter remain. And my laughter remain.

I didn really smile for these few days. But these little moment, looking at how merrier a situation can become when everyone smile makes me feel light hearted.

Sometimes it is just that simple.

Little reason to smile #7: Being part of the happy crowd.

On the verge of eternity

追追　趕趕　推推　撞撞

目空一切　理想燒光

真真　假假　跌過　痛過

愛的花火　只給我願與望

天黑　天光　天清　天蒼

曾經廝守　暗地向往

可惜這夜　煙花已謝　沒法被仰望

差一剎　我信地老天荒

只差一步　欲望幻化星光

誰和誰存活愛　誰和誰埋沒愛

天堂在哪方

我怕就怕　失望

其餘一切也不枉

所有代價　通通捨割

心血都流光

抹去害怕　撕掉稀罕

忘情才游到彼岸

我命裏鑽不出因果

真假如浮雲　天也在看

Erase the fear, stop the yearning
Forget floating feelings that cannot reach the shore.

Safe & Sound

In the drama On 36 hours call, 鱼子 said,

"When human go faced sadness and death, they often questioned God, why am I the one? Why of all people, I am the one who have to suffer this? Why am I so unlucky? Human, in nature, will keep on ask why. Because they are afraid. They are afraid of pain and death. But actually it's human who forgot that, pain and death will always be a part of our life. We know from the day we born, we will die one day. So, we shouldn't be afraid. We should go through everyday in the best way we can."

Do you understand this?

All of us will have a fear in our heart, in our mind. No matter how strong you are. You will be fear of something. We try hard to protect ourselves from being hurt. We will try hard to prevent ourselves from feeling pain. It's nature. Not every one can make their day pass through with smile. Be thankful that you still have a chance to make a difference in your life. Be thankful that you are not dying tmr, you can still make a better tmr. There are so many things that can make us upset. But if we dont value our days, you will never know when God took it away. It might be just the next hour, an accident, you will be gone.

Think of the last thing you wish to do before you die. Do you wish to cry before you die? Do you wish to leave this world with tears? No one will. Yes, no one will. So, you shouldn't even cry today so it won't be the last thing you ever regret when you're gone.

Try to find the inner peace in your mind.

This song give me a little peace when I start to off track.

I remember tears streaming down your face

When I said, I'll never let you go

When all those shadows almost killed your light

I remember you said, Don't leave me here alone

But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight

Just close your eyes

The sun is going down

You'll be alright

No one can hurt you now

Come morning light

You and I'll be safe and sound

Don't you dare look out your window darling

Everything's on fire

The war outside our door keeps raging on

Hold onto this lullaby

Even when the music's gone

Just close your eyes

The sun is going down

You'll be alright

No one can hurt you now

Come morning light

You and I'll be safe and sound

Just close your eyes

You'll be alright

Come morning light,

You and I'll be safe and sound...

【那些年，我們一起追的女孩】

This movie makes me cry!

The first time I heard about this movie was during end of December. Ppl told me that the ending wasn't a nice one. So, I didn't even thought of watching it at all. I'm scare that I'm too involved with the emotion. Like I watch Titanic, I always tear a little when comes to the ending. I will have a natural flash back of what the lovers did and eventually, teared.

And then I saw this video clip when I was in karaoke with my course mates after my final exam ends, during January. At first, I was happily singing this song as this is a really nice song. It brings back memories even with the title itself "Those day". Then, as I watched the video clip, I astonished. Too indulged with the video clip, I just sat there and watch the whole mv without singing anymore. A thought of myself, "Omgggg, this will be a very nice, SAD story". I can see how lovely there are yet knowing it will be a sad ending. It makes me feel like wanting to watch but scare being too emotional.

So finally, after keeping the movie for a month. I dig up the courage and watch this. The last ten minutes of the movie, I just can't stop myself, I cried. As in, I really cry and not even just tearing. The director make a flash back of them. And if you had watch this, you will know how much the guy love the girl by his action in the end of this story. It was an unexpected action but he just did it to show how much he wanted to do that.

Worst is the movie was based on a true story. Though they may add some additional details in it but it still make this movie so heartfelt.

This movie delivers a lesson. PLEASE CONFESS YOUR LOVE!

Think of a person

To those who read this:

1st: Think of a person in your life who knows a lot about you, a person whom you share most your things with. About your secret, about your thoughts and all your little behavior. A person who knows your habit and little details.

Now, thanks this person for all the patient and care he/ she would give for understanding you and hearing all your confession at most of the time. Thanks this person for being your life support and makes your days better by not bottling yourselves up.

2nd: Think of a person in your living life whom you would want to marry him/her in the next life. You may not work out with this person this life, but you still hope there is a chance in next life. Or you are happily with this person this life and you would want to continue till next life.

Cherish this person no matter what happen for this person has craved an eternal mark in your life. Appreciate this person though he/ she might not belong to you. Cherish and appreciate as you can't force yourself to let go in any way.

♥

The lost ring

I rmber this girl I'd met. She was angry with the person she love. They were arguing about something. Out of anger, she threw away a ring, a couple ring to the field next to them. After long discussion and tears, they were fine back. Then, the guy left and went to take something. After the guy left, the girl immediately rush to the field, looking for something. Yes, looking for the ring. She look for very long, at all possible place where the ring could land. Few minutes later, the guy came back, looking at her finding for their ring. A little smile in his face. They look together for that ring.

Look for long enough, they couldn't find it. Then, they left.

It was almost impossible for the girl to unable to find that ring. The field was just a metre a way from her, when she threw, there was no one pass by at all. The ring must be somewhere just a metre away from her. How far could she throw? It was just a very small field. The ring is silver, it should shine out of the Sun. But she couldn't find it even in such confine place.

She must have thought she could find back when she threw. But she couldn't in the end.

This teaches us never assume you can find back the thing you gave up. You thought you had hold on the situation, taking everything under control, but this is not the case as in the end, faith mislead us. Not everything can be predict. Learn to appreciate.